i love this girl

sapagkat lagi mo akong tinatanong kung mahal pa ba kita...

2005-12-24T18:55:00.000-08:00

sapagkat wala nang sinumang makadadalaw pa sa blog na ito, narito ang isang tulang nakalaan para sa mga nagmamay-ari ng pahinang ito sa napakalawak na WWW.

dahil lagi kang nagtatanong kung mahal pa kita

Dahil lagi kang nagtatanong kung mahal pa kita,
narito ang aking tugon:

Para kong anino ang iyong gunita.
laging nakasunod sa akin,
nagmamasid, nagbabantay,
walang pagod sa pagtunghay.
Nakakintal ka sa aking noo,
gaano ko man pilit iwaksi
mananatili akong bigo.
Sinubukan kong makipagtunggali sa iyo
subalit nasugatan ko lamang ang aking sarili
dahil sa bandang huli,
ako pala ang iyong baluti.
Ilang beses na akong nagtangka
na sumbatan ka't bulyawan ng sumpa
ngunit ang nangyari napalitan ko pa
ang sumpa ng oda, salmo,
himnong tigib ng pagsusumamo.
Hindi pa rin ako napapagal
sa mga anekdota mong paulit-ulit
na nagtatanghal
sa aking muni.

Mahal pa ba kita?

Nakahanda na ako sa anumang hapding
maaaring idulot sa lumiliyag kong dalit
dahil ang katotohanan nito,
ikaliligaya ko kung sa huling pagpikit,
ang huling masilaya'y mapanglaw mong ngiti.

Ngayon, marikit na mortal,
ikaw na ang sumagot.
Mahal pa ba kita?

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yep i was feeling like.. poetic?? actually i've read a few florante at laura lines before i wrote that piece of trash. it was indeed trash so feel free to criticize it. i'm sorry i'm not gifted with literary talent. ^_^!

A BLESSED CHRISTMAS TO ALL!

Dec 14

2005-12-14T11:20:00.000-08:00

a very happy birthday to the love of my life, the girl behind my dreams...

happy birthday shim.

subject

2005-11-12T16:54:00.000-08:00

sabi ng paborito kong kanta, it's not always rainbows and butterflies. minsan blue and black.

kung hindi kita mahal noon pa kita iniwan. kung hindi kita mahal wala na ako sa UST. kung hindi kita mahal wala na ako sa earth.

kung hindi mo'ko mahal matagal ka nang umalis dahil bawal.

salamat. gaya ng sinabi ko kahapon, wala nang dapat itanong. wala nang dapat sukatin. dapat nga wala nang sinasabi pa. alam naman natin kung gaano natin kamahal ang isa't isa.

~going strong... please hold on. :)

***

on a lighter side, here's a tip sa mga taong hindi na magkasya ang baon nila sa isang linggo... ^_^

kung hindi na magkasya ang baon mo ng isang linggo, iisa lang ang ibig sabihin nun... maliit ang wallet mo. kailangan mo nang palitan.

~when my korni side attacks.. XD

update

2005-11-10T14:33:00.000-08:00

after how many weeks of being lost.. here am i once again. lol. update!!!

1. for the whole sembreak i've been perfecting this one particular acoustic song, only to realize a few minutes ago that she actually hate the song. anyways.. ok lang. i love her. :)

2. sembreak's over. sa sabado, exam na ng pag-ibig sa law school. beb, wag kalimutan! doe, a deer, a female deer. ha? it's not a tibo deer. lol. aja!

3. waaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!!! napakasarap namang magblog. ngayon lang ako ulet nagpost.

4. sasali ako sa bluequill!!! inspire me chim. pangako sa'yo lang iikot ang essay ko. :)

till next time mga dudes...

just to post something...

2005-10-18T18:40:00.000-07:00

i don't want to sound uber proud or conceited or anything but i'm really happy with my special someone...

before the semester ended, she gave me this letter... and i was in the middle of reading Nicholas Sparks' The Notebook... and somehow, it made me feel like the male character, Noah and my Pepe have the same style in writing love letters... Noah's letters to Allie and Pepe's most recent letter made me cry. bwahaha!! *crybaby* yeah, i know...

here's how some of the lines in the letters went:

"At sa napakaraming pagkakataong nagkaroon tayo ng alitan, tampuhan, di pagkakaunawaan, selosan at iba pa na marahil ay dulot ng kaiklian ng aking pasensya, humihingi ako ng tawad. Hindi kailanman nabawasan ang anumang nararamdaman ko para sa'yo."

"Sa katunayan, alam kong alam mo pero hindi lang ganap, kapag ngumingiti ka, lumalambot ang puso ko." (well, that's a little scary. and dangerous.)

and lastly..
"Noong nakita kitang umiiyak higit tatlong taon na ang nakakaraan, sinabi ko na sa sarili kong hindi kita iiwanan.
At hindi nga."

~~gwee.. there may be many happy couples out there. and there may be many cynics that do not believe in love. but there's nothing to be afraid of. if you're afraid to get hurt (which i used to be), you wouldn't feel this certain happiness and security. and like Bo Sanchez said in one of his stories, You can make your life beautiful.

i miss you pei, love you.

happy birthday baby ko!!!

2005-09-25T02:08:00.000-07:00

of all things that i want to thank God for,

the most must be the day the love of my life was born.

.... happy birthday, Adeth!

loveyou...

30th monthsary

2005-09-01T10:33:00.000-07:00

tomorrow will be our 30th monthsary... ang tagal na..

happy monthsary pei... i'm so lucky to be loved by you...

*hugs*

love you~!!!!!

kung 'di kita mahal..

2005-08-22T18:30:00.000-07:00

kung 'di kita mahal
ba't ikaw ang laman ng isip ko
sa bawat oras at sandali
pangalan mo ang nasasambit

kung 'di kita mahal
ba't 'di ko kayang mawala ka
sa aking tabi
ikaw ang pangarap ko
sana'y maintindihan mo na...

sa bawat panaginip
larawan mo ang natatanaw
at dahil dito ayaw ko nang magising
kailan pa man
sabihin mo sa'kin
ba't ako nagkakaganito
kung 'di kita mahal

kung 'di kita mahal
bakit ayokong nakikita kang lumuluha
nalulungkot ako
sana'y maintindihan mo na...

kung 'di kita mahal
bakit ayokong nakikita kang lumuluha...

+9th Avenue: Kung 'di kita mahal by Edu Reyes+

little children in love

2005-08-20T14:41:00.000-07:00

nais kong kumain.

nagsalo kami kanina sa isang mini lucky me supreme la paz batchoy bagama't gutom na gutom na kaming dalawa. nakakatawa dahil buong araw kaming may di-pagkakaunawaan at nakalimutan naming kumain dahil doon. tapos heto kami, parang mga batang nagsasalo sa iisang kutsara at sa iisang maliit na mangkok pagkatapos naming magbati.

hehe. funny. woerd ninyo talaga kapag inlab.

naalala ko tuloy noong Aug. 11, umiiyak siya sa gutom. para talagang bata. nakakatawa. tapos wala kaming perang disposable noon. at iniisip namin na paano kapag magkasama na talaga kami at wala na talaga kaming pera. tapos umiyak siya nang umiyak sa gutom. tapos pumayag na akong ilibre niya ako sa isang napakagarang kainan...

dyalibi.

at kumain kami ng parang walang bukas. umorder ng burger and fries (go large coke and fries), palabok meal, chickenjoy meal, macaroni soup, at nagtake-out ng burger with TLC. nakakatawa talaga. para siyang batang kumakain. tuwang tuwa. gusto ko nga ibili ng jolly kiddie meal.

hehe.

i love you. sori sa away kanina.. *hugs* :)

happy two years!!

2005-08-18T10:00:00.000-07:00

hey everyone!! i would like to celebrate (?!) our 2nd WEDDING anniversary which is happening today!! :)

yes, we are already married. galing noh?? i'm quite sure ngayon nyo lang yan nalaman.

hehe..

here's how adeth courted:

1. lagi nya 'ko kinukurot (pati ngayon) sa pisngi. dati sa pisngi lang, sabe nya symbol daw yun ng kanyang pagmamahal. waha~! ngayon, kahit saan kinukurot ako. bute nde ako nagkakapasa.

2. lagi nya ginugulo ang buhok kong napaka-hirap ayusin. kasi ang ibig sabihin daw nun ay ndi mabubuhay ng wala yun. (may weirdo syang pag-iisip ng rules)

3. lagi s'yang nagse-stay hanggang 10 pm nung 1st year eh hanggang 7 lang ang klase. tapos........ napapagalitan na pala s'ya.

4. nangungurot sya ng ilong. ang laki daw kasi ng ilong ko.

nung sinagot ko na...

akala daw nya sisigaw sya, eh tulog yung buong bahay kse alas-dose yun. baka pag sumigaw sya, mapalayas sya bigla.

at... boto sa'kin ang nanay n'ya!! ahahahahahaha!! mabuhay ang mga pungip.

loveyou baby.. happy anniversary. bakit mahilig kang mangurot? kurutir.

AYAW KO NG BREAD!!!!!!

new skin

2005-08-17T11:01:00.000-07:00

hey everyone, and to my bewabed..

i changed the skin already. credits to blogskins. i hope you like it... and maybe..just maybe.. this one will last the longest time. i find it very adorable and sweet. :)

the layout says it all..

(kahit walang winter sa Pinas.)

rain of tears..yet happy

2005-08-05T11:20:00.000-07:00

hellow!! a new post once again. :)

i have nothing much to say except, thank you...

thank you for sharing another monthsary with me last wednesday, August 3.

*hugs tightly*

I love you more than anything

Than anything, I do.

And I'd give anything and everything

I have just to be with you.

These feelings I hold inside are emotions,

I can not hide.

These feelings will not be some sign.

I'd give anything when I look into your eyes,

I see something special about you,

And when I hold your hand,

You seem to understand that...

I love you more than anything

When I think of life without you,

It brings me right down to my knees

Cause I can't have a life without you

You're the strength that keeps me holding on.

I'd do things that can't be done.

I'd fly to the moon and around the sun

You're just saying that I would do all,

I'd do anything, anything,

(More than anything==Hanson)

wednesday...

2005-07-27T21:10:00.000-07:00

If my entire existence had not been yours, the harmony of my being would have been lost, and I must have died -- died inevitably.

I'm sorry sa troubles last week. That'd be the last. Peksman.

You know how hard it will be to start again. I would never want to throw this kind of relationship. It's not easy creating a future.

I'm sorry. You know I cannot let you go.. in any ways...

sorry bebe...

2005-07-25T21:30:00.000-07:00

When I thought you wouldn't come back... I felt like I was robbed
of something as precious as my soul.

I know I'm scared of being alone, but more than that, I'm afraid
of starting all over again, getting back to my feet from grave
sadness. I once recovered from something that was painful because
of you, and I know that if I lose you, I would feel worse pain
than what I have experienced before..

and would I care is somebody picks me up again if it wouldn't be
you?

I wanted to die that day. I soooo badly wanted to die. I wanted
to die silently in my dorm room, and no body will ever find out..

and if I did die that day, I wonder where I'd be looming tonight.
I'm sure I wouldn't be typing here and telling you that I love
you, although I have never been sure how much...

I don't know how much assurance I need to make you believe that
..

but i do love you with all my heart, Adeth.

and I extremely apologize for acccusing you of being insensitive,
when it was I who was actually being one. I'm really sorry..

wanderuse

2005-07-22T13:07:00.000-07:00

There is absolutely two reasons why I don't want to die...

1. JAM - a promise is a promise. Besides, I'm still hoping to spend a lifetime with her.

2. JAM - takot kasi siya sa multo..

Tomorrow should have been a monthsary. 31st unofficial monthsary. Thanks na rin..

T_T

2005-07-22T08:00:00.000-07:00

here's the poem i made. i posted it in my blog but you didn't want to read since you said you don't want to visit my blog anymore just cos you get to read some stuff about some people i don't care too much about.

you insensitive prick.

If I'm gonna die tomorrow
would you care?
If I would leave you tonight
would you bade farewell?
If I would want to
take you with me

would you come?

literary love

2005-07-16T15:03:00.000-07:00

"It felt like the world has opened up for me. When nobody, nothing else matters but you and me. When I looked at you in the eyes, the normal feeling that I didn't want to feel again seemed distant. So distant... that it is very impossible for me to feel it again. Then you held my hand, embraced it so dearly that it made me feel so alive again, reborn in your loving arms. I wish I could hold you forever. I wish my fingers would interlock in yours delicately, forever, like the way they did during that very moment. That very moment when I knew that I've fallen in love again. My mind kept on spinning, wondering if this fantasy will ever end. I was in doubt if this -fantasy- is right or if this is wrong. But you assured me, Baby. That it maybe wrong before them,

but right in our eyes."

_written by eucalyptus, 2003_

my sweet sexy thing... my eucalyptus...

2005-07-13T16:35:00.000-07:00

why do i love thee??

dahil ikaw ang babaeng gustong immortalize ng bawat makata at hahandugan ng awitin ng mga pinakamagagaling na kompositor.

dahil ikaw lang si chimi at ikaw lang...

ang napakamaalaga at mabait kong girlfriend. hwahahah!!

at iisa ka lang. para kang isang higanteng hito na nahuli sa thailand. *kisses then runs away*

2005-07-12T14:40:00.000-07:00

kung sakali...

2005-07-10T11:45:00.000-07:00

look at our baby.. (hehe..the pic was taken when i was holding that baby. *grins*) look at his eyes... those round eyes look like it was from adeth, and those cheeks too.. and then his lips, det said his lips look like it was from me... and well, det also said his nose looks like it came from me too. -.-;;

3 days after monthsary

2005-07-06T23:57:00.000-07:00

okei..so we had our 28th monthsary last July 3, sunday.. and we were not together. but it's alright, after all, we've celebrated monthsaries together since 2003. *smiles faintly*

by the way, i changed the from i love this girl to "to catch her everytime she falls..." the first one sounds like a basketball game. (i love this game.) i heard Maroon 5's she will be loved while reading Poetics earlier so I figured the phrase would sound a lot better. ehehe

i'm actually thinking of what to type in since (i got bored while reading poetics) you're not here and i have nothing to do.. but i can't seem to have anything in mind.

===
I just realized that I have to make things clear.. and maybe this is the right place to do it.

People,

In my blog, I did mention Paolo's name a few times and you might probably think that i haven't moved on yet. true, there are times (which rarely occur) that i get to miss him but missing a person as such doesn't mean that i'm still romantically in love with him. NO. there are of course reasons to miss a person and that i will keep a secret. i'm loyal to koala bear and at this moment, not entertaining any suitors. (clear? must be.)

thanks a bunch.

===
*waves at koala bear* hi!!! ehehe.. i miss you.. can't wait to see you again tomorrow! *kiwt*

wedding song

2005-07-06T11:34:00.000-07:00

Are those your eyes, is that your smile
I've been lookin at you forever
But I never saw you before
Are these your hands holding mine
Now I wonder how I could of been so blind
For the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time I'm seein' who you are
I can't believe how much I see
When you're lookin back at me
Now I understand why love is...
Love is... for the first time...
Can this be real, can this be true
Am I the person I was this morning
And are you the same you
It's all so strange how can it be
All along this love was right in front of me
For the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time I'm seein' who you are
I can't believe how much I see
When you're lookin back at me
Now I understand why love is...
Love is... for the first time...
Such a long time ago I had given up on findin' this emotion..ever again
But you live with me now
Yes I've found you some how
And I've never been so sure For the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time I'm seein' who you are
I can't believe how much I see
When you're lookin back at me
Now I understand why love is...
Love is... for the first time...
(Kenny Loggins: For the first time)

cute namin noh?

2005-06-29T01:36:00.000-07:00